APOLIGISE

This has been quite difficult sat here thinking how to word this.

Over the last week or so my memory and thoughts of my past have been in the fore front of my thoughts. I've discovered that a huge amount of my memory isn't true. I assume because you remember what your told by repetition when your younger. Here are some examples:-

1) I have believed my entire life that the only person who didn't turn there back on me when I was young was my Dad. As he continually refused to sign the adoption papers. I discovered yesterday that he had turned up at the social workers home address and tried to sign the adoption papers before my Mum was buried.

2) I believed my Aunt had thrown me and my younger brother Paul out because Paul wet the bed, he was 3yr old and his mum had just died of course he would. Not so long ago I discovered this was also false.

3) I believed once my aunt had thrown us out she wanted nothing to do with Paul or I. I discovered yesterday that was untrue as well. Actually I also thought the same of my granddad also untrue.

4) I believed that social services had refused me contact with my brother and sister Ian & Lorna. I discovered yesterday this was definitely not the case in fact the 1st social worker I ever had wanted there to be contact from the 1st day I was in care.

I blamed social services for so so much and over the last day or 15 I've discovered none of it was true. I feel so bad, I am having to alter my entire life story almost and its tearing me apart! It will take some getting my head round. So I'd like to

APLOIGISE TO ANY SOCIAL I EVER DEALT WITH

This is not enough but its all I can cope with at the minute sorry!